After the rather tiring weekend came rather tiring 3 days. I think the kids are also sick of the cold weather – they keep asking me when summer is coming, when we’re going to Estonia (we usually have a long holiday there in July/August) and they are visibly grumpier than usual.
Last night I disappeared under the covers of my bed as soon as they were asleep and considered not getting up until the next morning. A million thoughts were racing through my head, I was feeling the weight of responsibility really heavy on my shoulders all of a sudden – the responsibility of raising children, the responsibility of being a grown-up and rushing around all the time from job to parenting to running to CrossFit to German lessons after work… I love it all but I felt tired and overwhelmed.
I laid there in the darkness for a couple of minutes but then started thinking about an amazing book I’d just finished, Scott Jurek’s “Eat & Run”. His father always used to tell him that “sometimes you just do things” and I decided to just drag myself out of bed and snap out of the funk… because sometimes we just have to do things…
However, I decided to slow down. I didn’t go to German after work today and came straight home to see the kids. I am not doing a long run this weekend and will just concentrate on chill time with the family. The kids were awesome tonight and getting home at 6 instead of 8 like on usual language class days means that I don’t feel as wrecked.
Sometimes you just do things. And sometimes you just slow down, let a few things slide and smell the roses.