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The title was going to be: So why am I not totally ripped yet?

You will be fine.

This week has been “different”. I have not gone to CrossFit or done any running since that 1.54km on Wednesday. I have felt ridiculously tired and a little bit broken. I have thought about sleeping all the time but the nights have been very interrupted due to children.

I usually get really cranky if I don’t get to run a few times a week but in that department it’s actually been ok. I realise that sometimes in life there are periods when I can’t run and I have to learn how to handle them. I have to learn to be active in other ways, walk a lot, take the stairs / walk the escalators like I always do, etc. And I have to learn to eat less when I’m not training for a marathon.

So it’s been ok, life has felt a little less hectic and I have felt a bit more rested.  Then on Friday I happened to read someone’s blog post about not seeing any changes in their body after months and months of daily exercise and eating mostly just vegetables and meat. I commented that it’s not about quick visible results, that health and fitness is a journey that’s about feeling good in your skin, whether you have 24% body fat or 20% (both are totally acceptable so no reason to fret over the 24!).

Then after half a day I realised that my mood had gradually dropped to totally glum – I had actually started to think at the back of my mind “hmmm… I have not seen any changes in my body either… not in the lead up to the marathon… and neither in the 9 months that I’ve done CrossFit… maybe I should be seeing results by now??… maybe my upper arms should be defined by now?… what am I doing wrong??… is it he pizza I ate today?… is it the croissant I ate yesterday??… is it because I am not 100% gluten free these days??… is it because I just eat too much??”

I actually let myself to be in that negative mindset for most of the day.

Finally the voice of reason took over and reminded me why I exercise and try to eat well – it’s because it makes me feel good to be in my skin.

It reminded me that I never set out in this running or CrossFit journey to be ripped. I started it because I wanted to feel strong.

And that I have achieved. I feel strong, I feel fit. (less on the days I eat pizza though because gluten does bloat me so terribly 😐 ).

So I have been reminded that it’s not about visually looking like some ideal that probably doesn’t exist anyway (have a read of this brilliant post on the photoshopping of models that goes on), it’s about feeling good from the inside, now and for a long time (have a look at this amazing video interview with a 74-year old who radiates the energy of a 20 year old).

Tonight I’m feeling positive again and I will try to hold onto that feeling.

In the long run as long as we are aware and mindful of our bodies and how they feel, giving them rest when they need it or even giving them pizza when we haven’t had any in a long time – we will be fine.

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    June 23, 2013 at 2:39 pm

    After doing strict paleo for 2 months, then paleo with chips added in and then paleo with chips and 85% green and blacks added in until 2 weeks of being ill and it was not quite a free for all, but it did included chocolate cheesecake, takes aways etc I am now back on it.

    I realised that I had put some of the lost body fat back on, I am not going to say ‘eurgh I’ve put on weight’ and really clothes aren’t tighter but I can see the wobble.

    And it was a reminder to me that 6 months into Crossfit and 4 months into eating clean/paleo that I am still on a (prepare for cliche) weight (fat) loss journey. Yes my body has changed dramatically since I started that journey (in Sept 2012 4 months of calorie counting and normal gym, plus the above added)

    but it is not there yet, and I don’t mean that in a ‘I am not ripped yet’ I mean I still have excess body fat that means 2 things to me. First of all I don’t feel at all comfortable about parts of my body (mainly stomach) and I know this is not me being ridiculous as I have been on a interesting journey with my legs. And I am nearing completion in happiness with those! But the 2nd point is health, I now have (after 3 stone loss) at least 1 foot in the skinny fat camp and for health I know that isn’t good.

    So as far as eating goes I need to reign it back in, I now know sugar is my issue so I am working on a happy place where I don’t go totally without but also it is not controlling me. It is a work in progress.

    For me the being ripped is not something I ever thing I will achieve, and I have tried to focus more since CF on what my body can do, and that has changed dramatically, and then the knock on effect has been the way I look. I have also come to realise that so many images we see in the fitness world are fake really.

    the whole thing of dehydrating and bulking and all that stuff people do to look a certain way that as far as I can see doesn’t have much to do with being fit. Which as someone who is relativly knew to fitness is a bizarre concept.

    I do also think as we are in the minority of our peers outside of crossfit and your running with our eating that it is harder as people just don;t get it.

    I am determined to find a balance with eating where I know it is sustainable as it needs to be. I know I can do strict paleo for example, but I don;t think I want to do that all the time. So yes balance it is…

    It might have taken a bit of a blip for me to stop a couple of weeks ago, having a 2 week rest from CF too and totally chilling about food. And it was nice, I enjoyed every mouthful guiltfree. But I also know that being 3 stone over weight for the last lots of years I didn’t feel guilty about eating either!

    But Thursday felt great, starting clean eating again and going to CF and getting a PR dead lift. I think we need to be kinder to ourselves and appreciate things. This is also something I am working on, celebrating the positives.

    So lots is a work in progress, but as your image says, it will be fine

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    June 23, 2013 at 7:26 am

    Absolutely right! Well said.

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    June 23, 2013 at 12:47 am

    Great post! It’s most definitely about feeling strong, both in body and mind. And a journey in that as well as in crossfit 🙂

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    Tammy Chrzan
    June 23, 2013 at 12:00 am

    I can understand why you might feel glum when not running, so many endorphins are released when we exercise that we can’t be anything BUT happy!! Please keep in mind that even if you don’t see change on the outside just think of your incredibly healthy heart!! I don’t run, but I’m a swimmer and I can’t get enough of it! So keep up the great work! You’re doing better than most of us!!

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    June 22, 2013 at 11:55 pm

    Well said. And for the record – you look amazing & strong.

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    June 22, 2013 at 7:56 pm

    We all need a break from time to time. Just take it easy for a while…

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