I love the beginning of a new year. 365 new blank pages to write on. Some pages will have all kinds of awesomeness written on them, some pages I’ll probably tear out and forget about.
I’m not making any resolutions this year, you know the kinds like ‘to lose weight’ or ‘to become a better person/mother/wife/sister/friend’ or ‘to do one thing every day that scares you’. What the heck is that last one about anyway, getting up some days, especially on school holiday days when I know the kids are bored by the time I wake up, scares me enough 🙂
As far as weight – I won’t lose any, in fact I will gain, I’m sure of it. And I will become ‘bulkier’ than my masseuse thinks is appropriate for a woman. In fact I think I need a new masseuse in 2015 because I’m sick of hearing ‘oh you should really not put any more muscle on’. I LIKE making muscles. And I don’t really care if that looks ladylike or not. I’m too old to care. (FINALLY – a BENEFIT to getting older!) AND – I make noises when I lift heavy weights and I don’t wear make-up when I’m not in the office and I don’t wear heels I can’t run in. I’m finally ok with the fact that I’m not cute or ‘ladylike’. I’m a woman, hear me roar! Or something like that 🙂
As far as becoming a better person – I won’t. I will stop beating myself up over the fact that I am NOT a perfect person/mother/wife/sister or a friend. I don’t catch up with my friends as often as I’d like to, I yell at my kids and I bicker with my husband. At the end of the day though – no one is perfect. And that includes me. I know that most of the time I will try to treat everyone with kindness and patience (Other than those people who are total dicks. Because let’s face it, some people just are total dicks. Like Internet trolls. Or people who kick puppies.)
As far as health and fitness – I will be running, lifting and climbing as usual. I will be swimming some although I’ve given up on trying to learn to swim ‘properly’, I just don’t have time for another proper sport in my life. Same goes for Bikram yoga – I will get into it again but not full-on – my heart belongs to running and Crossfit.
As far as food – I will eat some sugar, some dairy, some gluten but most of the time I won’t. Most of the time I will look at my plate and think – vegetables and protein. If there is a large serving of vegetables and some protein then that’s a good start. 2015 will be the year of the vegetables for me. And maybe less red meat. I’m toying with that idea.
In general I will cut myself and others around me some slack because as Pamela Druckerman said in a great New York Times article:
There are no grown-ups. We suspect this when we are younger, but can confirm it only once we are the ones writing books and attending parent-teacher conferences. Everyone is winging it, some just do it more confidently.
EVERYONE is winging it. Everyone is doing the best they can.
So one day at a time. 😉 Take it easy on yourself. And eat more vegetables!