I’ve been out since last Thursday. Blocked nose, zero energy, stomach feels ‘off’ (I always feel a cold in the stomach, not sure it’s normal or unusual). I don’t get sick very often, maybe once a year, if that, so it’s been an “interesting” week. I’ve tried to run twice but mostly just been doing nothing. Listening to podcasts, reading books, chilling with the kids, watching Aussie MasterChef, pondering the meaning of life.
I have missed exercise but because I just have not had any energy, I have not lamented the lack of it. I figure the body needs to rest.
The whole experience has made me realise how tired I normally am. Even when I’m not sick. How I’m just not getting enough sleep and am constantly rushing around.
Some things will have to change. I will have to change some things. I have to prioritise sleep. There’s just no point in training hard if you don’t recover ‘hard’ as well.
I did even for a few moments think about giving up Crossfit altogether. A totally, completely insane thought, but it just shows how lethargic I’ve been. I thought how much more relaxed life would be if I didn’t rush to Crossfit all the time…
But I bloody love that place and what it does to my body and my self-confidence.
Then I considered switching Crossfit boxes to something nearby so I could go on weekends and have my rest days during the week when I’m in the office.
But I bloody love my box and the people there.
So what’s going to go?
Rubbish evening TV is going to go.
Being online until bedtime is going to go.
Eating until bedtime is going to go.
I’m going to read more, listen to podcasts more, blog more.
Hopefully all of that will mean I’ll fall asleep faster. Anything faster than an hour would be great. Sometimes it takes me 2 hours but let’s hope those times don’t return anytime soon.
Today I’m feeling 80% back to normal. Still not ready for Crossfit though. On Sunday I’m supposed to run the Ealing Half Marathon but I think I’m sitting this one out. It makes me a bit sad as I love that race and wanted to go for a new PB but I’m just not in shape for that after the week I’ve had. And I cannot run a race ‘for fun’ i.e. slowly. Unless I’m pacing someone I don’t see the point. Training runs are for fun, races are for pushing yourself to the max.
So I’m going to continue chilling out. I’m going to continue reading the Rosie Project and Reasons to stay alive. I’m going to continue listening to the Mind Muscle Project and Barbell Shrugged podcasts. I might even get me one of those colouring books to colour in while I’m listening – at the moment I play Tetris – I feel my brain needs to do something repetitive while I’m listening.
I have not been this inactive for a long time but I feel like this needs to happen right now. That right now is not the time to push myself. The body’s tired and has told me to chill. I shall listen to the body.