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The process of coming into pieces

Warning: This post is mostly about PMS. If you are male, feel free to hop along to the next blog in your reading list. Seriously. I won’t take it personally 🙂



Disintegration (the process of coming into pieces), by Nathan Sawaya – part of a very cool exhibit we saw – Art of the Brick

Almost two weeks of no posts.

I’ve been laying low again.

It’s like clockwork these days – the first 2 weeks of my month I’m feeling pretty good and then on day 14 the hormone levels change and boom – I walk around as if my head’s in cotton wool no longer knowing who I am or what I’m doing or why I’m doing what I’m doing.

It’s so much like clockwork that it’s getting ridiculous. Apparently I’m not alone though. Apparently 75% of women suffer quite severely for a week or two every month.

If you’ve got history of depression (check) or are in your ‘late reproductive years’ (check), the two week just-wanting-to-nap (or eat muffins) period is almost a given. 😐

So… woe is me. I either want to exercise or sleep. Actually, I don’t want to exercise but I do it anyway. Just because it’s magic. It truly is. I rock up to Crossfit or go for a run and for an hour I remember again who I am.

Fascinating stuff. Hormones and endorphins and serotonin and stuff.


Stretching after another mind-healing Crossfit session

So is there a cure? Apparently there is but I’m already doing so many things in the list of things I should be doing that I can’t see why I’m not cured already. Here’s a good article with a list of everything that could/should alleviate PMS symptoms.

The good news is that today it’s day 25 and the fog is lifting, it has been lifting for 2-3 days already, my mind is getting clearer. It is surreal how it just comes over me and then just lifts, how I can feel it happening so clearly both ways, how something intangible is so palpable.

This stuff is hard to write about. Always has been. But I make myself write about it because it’s important stuff – hormones and depression and Other Complicated Mental Health Stuff.

It’s important stuff even though when I am feeling low I’m embarrassed and confused and just want to sleep it all away. The fact that I’m publishing this post today must mean that the low point for this month is over 🙂

What do you think? Is PMS a myth? (I used to think so in my 20s) Do you mind reading about my low times? Do you want me to write more about my PBs, cause I’ve got some?! – 80kg back squat on Monday 🙂


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    October 10, 2014 at 10:27 pm

    I have similar issues – bad mood swings around the third week, and it’s gotten even worse with menopause.

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    October 10, 2014 at 5:07 pm

    I’ve been taking agnus castus for the last 2 months as I had just about reached my limit with feeling shit for a large part of every month. I have to say it has made a massive difference, I feel so much better when I am taking it, particularly in the week before when I was struggling and it’s alleviated the ungodly cramps I was suffering too. Shatavari is another herb good for hormone balancing which I want to try out and see how that goes too.

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    October 10, 2014 at 1:39 pm

    This is the kind of post under which I feel obligated to tell you how much I appreciate it when people write about these kind of things. My mood definitely swings along with the menstruation cycle and this is just so annoying. Get’s especially hard during that half of the year when light is scarce too. It becomes really confusing to keep up an healthy image of self, like who’s the real me really? It also teaches one a lot about emotions and how to trudge through a day when you don’t feel like it at all, because you know what’s best in the long term.

    It kind of perplexes me to realize how common this problem is. Wouldn’t it be really disadvantageous evolution-wise or is it just that our life styles mismatch with what is good for us that badly …

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    October 10, 2014 at 10:50 am

    Hmmm … good post. I’ve always just assumed that work is EXTRA boring for a week every month which is why I want to nap …

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    October 9, 2014 at 12:44 pm

    Have you looked into essential oils at all to help with hormone balance? I’ve read a bit about it and have always wanted to give it a try as a natural alternative.

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      October 10, 2014 at 9:57 am

      I’m a bit skeptical about oils but admit I haven’t really looked into it. I’ve tried taking Agnus Castus and I think I’ll go back to that and really pay attention to whether it works and just how much.

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